MISSING: SANITY

If you are reading this letter it means that I have officially lost Sanity. This is not a hoax, or even a lame Geiko commercial, this is the real thing. Sanity was last seen on May 16th, 2009 at the Olmstead residence. It is believed that Sanity has left in response to what may have appeared as an altercation. This was in fact not an altercation, but merely a disagreement. That being said the disagreement took place between I, Allie, and Basil, my highly vocal puppy. The event took place at follows:
• Basil was placed in his well furnished crate @ approximately 9:30pm at which time he began sounding an alarm that can only be characterized as fire-alarm.
• This alarming noise the continued for the next 45 minutes before finding peace.
• Peace was short lived as Basil decided, that the house was all too peaceful.
• 10:30pm the alarm begins to sound yet again.
• At this time I entered Basil’s room and took Basil outside.
• Basil did not need to urinate, or otherwise relieve himself, in fact the only thing Basil was interested in was finding his way to my lap…
• After returning inside I immediately returned Basil to his bed and shut the door.
• 10:35 the alarm resumes, this time displaying a greater variety in his vocal range.
• 11:30… Shhh! The noise/siren/alarm has stopped…\
• 11:37, the noise/siren/alarm has returned
Now, one can see it is difficult to pin point just where Sanity left as my brain and body were otherwise engaged in caring for Basil. However, the fact remains the without Sanity I am unsure of how to get through the rest of the night. So it is with this sincere request that I ask who ever finds Sanity, or knows where to find Sanity contact me immediately.
Out of my mind,
Allie

Our Newest Addition

Meet Basil, who at this very moment is reinacting a fire alarm as he protests to going to bed. However, no amount of headaches, sleepless nights, or potty accidents could make me stop love him! For the past two nights Basil has suckered not only me but also Stephanie into allowing him to sleep with them. Now tonight as I, Mommy, and the only one home am putting my foot down, he must learn to sleep in his "home." ... After 40 minutes, Basil has FINALLY gone quiet which means he has fallen asleep!

Many of you who know me well know how much I long to be a mother... well I am a mother. I am a mother to Sage and to Basil, and quite frankly anyone who thinks otherwise must not have experienced the feeling of bring the puppy home, seeing them grow, and going over all the "milestones." Like the first time they climb the stairs, give you a big sloppy kiss, or fall asleep in your arms. Most of all you realize that you are this puppies parent, they look up to you, come running when you come home, and cry when you leave. The bottom line is if being a mother to my beautiful puppies makes me feel like this what will it feel like one day when I am blessed to bring a child into this world? The truth is I am ready and waiting, but learning to be patient.

Loving my family,
Allie

WILL THE SUN EVER SHINE AGAIN?

Sometimes I just have those weeks when it feels like nothing is going my way and recently it seems like it is a constant battle to stay optimistic. I know I need to learn to be more patient with my goals and dreams, that things will happen on God's time. Nothing is wrong with that in fact he knows me better than I know myself, so if it is his will that I learn this lesson the hard way than so be it. I can't help but wonder though where the light is. This is a song from my Disney on Record CD. I think it was originally in the move Home on the Range.

WILL THE SUN EVER SHINE AGAIN?
Rain is pourin' down like the
heavens are hurtin'.
Seems like it's been dark since
the devil knows when.
How do you go on, never knowin'
for certain,
Will the sun ever shine again?

Fells like it's been years since
it started to thunder.
Clouds are campin' out in the valley
and glen.
How do you go on, when you can't help
but wonder.
Will the sun ever shine again?

What if the rain keeps fallin'?
What if the sky stays gray?
What if the wind keeps squallin',
And never go away?

Maybe the soon the storm will be
tired of blowin'.
Maybe soon it all will be over, amen.
How do you go on, if there's no way
of knowin'?
Will the sun ever shine?
Wish I could say.
Send me a sign-
One little ray.
Lord, if you're list'nin', how long
until then?
Will the sun ever shine again?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v5XCBNU9kBE

Failed Cycle

Alright so we are home from the Doctors, and there is no good news. Not only am I not pregnant but I also did not ovulate. If the OBGYN can not get me to ovulate this month then I will have to go to a reproductive endo. A wise person reminded me of the fact that I never do anything the easy way and quite frequently choose to be difficult. So this is my body being difficult, while my mind goes insane wondering why me? Wish me luck and please keep us in your prayers.
Allie