What I should have told you yesterday.

This was really not the way that I anticipated everyone hearing about this, but it is a start. As many of you know despite our best efforts I have been unable to get pregnant. The medication that I have been on in the past not only made me sick, but also made me very emotional and moody. In addition being on the fertility medication I became very stressed and hard on myself for the fact we could not conceive. Even more stressed for the fact that the Doctors did not know why. They had run so many tests and had I never told them there was a problem the test would have been no indication. The Doctor basically told me that they don't know what is causing my infertility but he believed that they could give me medication allows me to conceive. After the whole ordeal of being sick, and just plan awful mood wise we called it quits. Nate and I agreed that it was way too much to go through when there is another option. In our minds this is a wonderful option.
Nate and I were blessed to be Married and sealed in the Palmyra Temple, sealing our family together for time and all eternity. We both look forward to having our children be a part of that blessing. After much thought and discussion Nate and I have decided to turn our attention to adoption through foster care. Because in the eternal perspective, when these children are sealed to us they become part of our eternal family. These children will be no different than the children born into the covenant. They will be our family and we will love them every moment for it. Of course we still have to go through the home-study process this summer. The home-study will be a great deal of work but worth every minute of it.
Before we are ready to start any of this process we are going to have to talk with everyone in my family and in Nate's family. To ensure that they support us and will agree to show our children the same love regardless of their background. Most of all I just want to know that our children have the best that life can afford them and that process starts with their family.
This may be a great deal for some to understand, but the way we see it there are so many children in this world that go unloved. We want to do our part to make sure these children do know that they are loved.